Done

I have never felt so hurt and so disrespected by so many people.  I am tired of the lies, tired of the bullshit, tired of the manipulation, and tired of the drama.


I utterly had an emotional breakdown today because I can't handle this anymore. I need to get away from this.  I am done.  I have spent so much time and energy on two people who have taken me for granted.  One day I'm the bad guy, the next day I'm the favorite (which I could give two shits about anyway).  So this round I am the bad guy...that's fine because I'm done.  No more gifts, no more money, no more rides, no more beach trips.  I am drawing the line.  Bridges have been burned for the last time.

Manners

Do parents teach their kids manners anymore?

Last night Devon, Presley and I went to go see the fireworks at Horseshoe Lake.  We had a nice spot on the beach and set up our blanket to get a good view of the fireworks.  Of course there were a lot of kids running around, but there didn't seem to be a parent in sight.  There were kids purposely throwing sand on our blanket, going past the barricades into the water when the sign clearly said to stay out, kids running through the sand kicking it all which way, and flinging ice cream at everyone.  We and another couple around these hooligans ended up moving our blankets.

I get that it was supposed to be a family fun night and for kids to have some fun, but that doesn't mean the kids shouldn't be mindful of the people around them.  When I have the kids on the beach, I always try to teach them proper beach etiquette as far as sand goes.  Of course no one can be careful all the time, but when a child is digging through the sand like a dog and throwing sand everywhere, that's where you need to draw the line.  Especially when you are on a super crowded beach!

Okay, rant over! I'm going to go enjoy my day.

The Ramblings of Someone Who Can't Fall Asleep!

There's a funny thing about friendship...you don't have to talk to one another everyday, or see each other all the time, but when you get that random phone call, text message or email, it can make your day.


There have been countless times when I've been in a bad mood or felt a little melancholy and out of the blue I will hear from one these friends to let me know they are thinking about me that day, and it will change my entire outlook on that day.  It's like they know.  There must be some sort of sixth sense to let them know that I could use a pick-me-up.  I'm sure I have done the same for them as well.


Seeing them in person is even better!!  Last week when I drove home from NC and stopped in to see Jess and Theresa.  I didn't think I would spend as much time there as I did, but once we get together, it's like time just passes and no one notices.  There is always something to talk about!


I remember a time during college that Jess and I went out to lunch after a night of drinking and we saw a cute older couple in the restaurant.  Jess had asked how, after many years of marriage and being together everyday, that could still have something to talk about.  I then reminded her that we were roommates, had lived together for going on two years, spent most of our time together and we still had stuff to talk about.  I don't know why that conversation sticks out in my head, but it's the truth.


I might not talk to everyone all the time and we might not know the goings-on in each other's lives all the time, but once we are together there is no topic that is off limits.  And that goes for all the great friends I made in college, not just Jess and Theresa.


The group emails, the get-togethers, the random "Jersey sucks" or "Yankees suck" text messages, the "I love yous" and everything else in between.  I really couldn't have asked to have met a better group of people in college.


As I think about my cousin Brian going off to college in the fall, I can only hope he has a similar experience!

I posted this pic awhile back on a couple of friends' facebook pages

p.s. this post does not only apply to college friends.


p.p.s. I don't know what compelled me to get out of bed at 12:30 and write this post!

Frustrated

Trying to search for work has got to be one of the most frustrating things ever.  There aren't many "good" jobs out there and most don't pay what I need to survive.  Not only that, but I don't even know what I would like to do or where I would like to end up.

I think about moving constantly, but I don't know if that is the answer.  I fear if I do move I will miss the kids too much.  They have been a big part of my life for the past 8 years and I have seen them at least once a month since they were born, so for me to move far away and not be able to see them, I feel it would break my heart.

I know I can't base my decisions on other people, but I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't worry about them.  I would worry about how it would effect them if I move far away and couldn't see them as often.  It doesn't help that anyone I talk to about moving always asks me "what about the kids?"

Hopefully one of these days I will figure something out!

Busy Busy

It's been quite awhile since I last posted.  I just got home after being away for two weeks!  First I was down by my parents, then I came home for about 7 hours to sleep and went down by my sister and spent some time with her and the kids.  We had some fun at the beach, until Marisah got stung by a jellyfish and we had to take her to the ER.  Poor baby girl.  She was in so much pain but she handled it quite well.  She made me sit in the back seat with her while Courtney drove to the hospital and she pulled my arm around her, laid her head on my shoulder and was crying.  It broke my heart!  I wanted to cry too, but I knew it would only make her feel worse.  She got the sting while swimming in the bay, so needless to say, I don't think she will be swimming in the bay again anytime soon.  It's too bad though because she had so much fun until that happened!

The aftermath of Rissy's jellyfish "hug"

On my way home from North Carolina, I made a stop to the Eastern Shore to see Theresa and the baby and to have dinner with Jess.  Sophie is so cute and so small!!  I spent a good amount of time with Theresa and it was so good to catch up and chat!  On the way to meet Jess for dinner I was driving through Salisbury and I was reminded of so many memories that I had forgotten about.  I passed the Chicken Man, UP, Brittingham Square, The Greens, Green Mor, SU, Cheers...all such great memories.  The memories that I made down there would not be such great memories if it hadn't been for the people I met and call my friends.  Sometimes I wish I could go back just for a week and relive it all!  


What I expected to be a quick trip through the Eastern Shore turned into a five hour pit stop.  Time went by so fast, I didn't even realize what time it was.  I started my trip in NC at 8 am and did not get to Jersey until 1:15 am.  It was all completely worth it.  


I wish that everyone could have as great of a college experience as I had.  I wouldn't change any one bit of it for anything!

Happy Father's Day!

The other day while my mom and I were taking a walk she was telling me how much I am like my father.  At that particular point it wasn't necessarily a good thing.  She said neither one of us talk and how it can be frustrating for her.  I am laid back like my father, while she is a bit neurotic and worries about my life when I'm not worrying about my own.  I had also pointed out earlier in the day how she missed the garbage with a paper towel and instead of picking it up I pointed it out to her.  Classic Kevin Wenthen move!


I like being like my father.  There isn't anyone else in the world I would rather be like.  He may be quiet and laid back, but I know if I ever need him, he will be there for me.  I also know that we can sit in a room together and not say a word, but it doesn't make a difference.


We just got back from a day on the golf course and dinner.  Not too much was said back and forth but it was nice knowing I could spend the day with my dad!

I hope everyone else had a great day with their fathers! Or, if you are a father, I hope you had a great day!  You all definitely deserve it!

Southern Living

I have been down visiting my parents for the last few days and I have to admit that I love southern living. I love that people are so friendly (although a bit annoying having to stop and say hello to everyone while talking my morning walk), I love that the people at the supermarket offer you help to your car, even if you only have one bag!  The houses are gorgeous, the weather is great and the simple way of life is perfection.

There is not much that I miss as far as the hustle and bustle of Jersey. I don't miss the traffic, I don't miss the rude people everywhere and I certainly don't miss the dirty congestion.

Right now I'm sitting on my parents porch watching the golfers and the birds in the river. I could probably sit out here all day! I wish I didn't have to go home next week but reality calls! Until then though, I'm going to enjoy the next few days here and celebrate Father's Day with my dad! I get to sit in a golf cart and chauffeur him around all day as he plays!